Dreadful Joy:
memoranda for the yinsane
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"The Lyf So Short, the Craft So Longe to Lerne..."
"The
lyf so short, the craft so longe to lerne, Th'assay so hard,
so sharp the conquerynge, The dredful joye..." -- Geoffrey
Chaucer, 1382, "The Parliament of Fowls"
As
a creative writer, I owe a huge debt to the irrational. That
spontaneously fanciful part of our human reality has gone
by many names: the unconscious, Muse, duende, Dionysian
mysteries, mundus imaginalis, the bardo, al mithal.
Let me now add yinsanity.
You
know what I mean. To do anything creatively, there’s
got to be a lot of yin: yinteriority: receptivity to the inner
darkness from which issue all the images that give imagination
its name. What amazes me is that within us a dream force organizes
these images into narratives. Every night when we dream -
and in all our daydreams - this dream force is busy telling
stories!
The
irrational storyteller inside us is our yinsanity. By relating
to this darkness that glimmers with secret fire, we answer
a central question for readers, “Where do writers get
their ideas?”
The
source of our yinsanity is the mystery that is reality. Thanks
in large part to three Teutonic wizards - Kurt Gödel,
Werner Heisenberg, and Ludwig Wittgenstein - we are among
the first generations to know that reality is unknowable.
That’s
the imploding reply to the explosive question, “Why
write creatively?”
To
possess oneself.
Our
lives are narratives. In the past, people could sincerely
believe their narratives corresponded to reality - to God
or science. Three Teutonic wizards punctured that illusion
forever. Truth for 21st century minds is unavailable. All
we have is imagination.
Our
brains trick us. The reality we see around us doesn’t
exist. Though our nervous systems are made of the same material
we find in our environment, we feel separate. We cherish a
distinct sense of past and a canny awareness of future. Yet,
for over a century now, Einstein’s relativity theories
have demonstrated (time and again!) that time is an illusion.
Brain
chemistry has evolved to optimize opportunities for reproduction,
and it seems our world - our ordinary, rational reality -
is an elaborate and sexy fiction, exquisitely useful for survival
but not at all representative of what really is.
Perhaps
our yinsanity offers a more realistic perspective than reason.
Perhaps creative writing is a way of sharing yinsanity and
its deeper dimension of reality: our mindful confrontation
with Mystery.
Writing
began as an alphanumeric magical code. Spelling creates spells
in the earliest writing. We still use it to spellbind destiny
by fixing our narratives on the page. Even a shopping list
is a contract with destiny. How much more so our dreams with
their own secret narrator? Or our stories dreamsprung from
the unconscious and manipulated into art?
Thousands
of generations of human dreaming - and just a few with the
opportunity to write down these most intimate stories of our
yinsanity and share them with complete strangers, even with
the unborn.
Damaged
like flowers for the gods, we are strewn across time, that
hard illusion, and trampled. Our written stories remain. The
Muse and Chaucer’s pilgrims are real - because they
don’t exist.
What
a spooky power! But (as master spellbinder Chaucer points
out) writing is not easy. Evolution didn’t adapt our
brains to read and write. Creative writing, our dreadful joy,
is a new way of human being - an invented way - of entering
together into the dreaming, into the ongoing narrative of
our creaturely psyche - our yinsanity.
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