Dreadful Joy:
memoranda for the yinsane
#4
Creative Writing
Requires
no license. No authorization. Only the author.
This
wasn't always so. Writing began as an occult art, which served
either the celestial gods or the terrestrial god, the king.
The
oldest written story, The Epic of Gilgamesh, fulfilled the
talismanic purposes of an author who was the first to set
his name to a work of creative writing: Sin-liqe-unninni,
a professional exorcist and resident of Uruk over three thousand
years ago. The incipit of this most ancient text vividly asserts
the sorcery of its author's purpose: He who stared into the
abyss.
Scored
with human blood, writing not only defines and authenticates
our lives, it also provides an expressive liberty we call
imagination. Those of us uncultivated in the profound implications
of contemporary physics minimize its power with phrases such
as: just imagination.
Since
earliest times, imagination has told us there's more to reality
than meets the eye. Now, through science, we know that's true.
Quantal interconnectedness, entanglement of subatomic particles,
non-local phenomena such as Bell's Inequality, and the illusion
of time (Einstein's relativity revelation, already over a
century old) are all well worth checking out if you're not
familiar with them. They imply that the abyss is not at all
what it seems.
The mind's eye is what gazes out from the pit. The irrational
intelligence that author's our dreams, the spontaneously fanciful
part of our human reality that inspires our poetry and fantasies
- our yinsanity - is our freaky yet serene freefall through
our days to the vanishing point.
Because
we now know time as an illusion, we can forget about the tyranny
of the past and the one way arrow to the future. Unlike the
Sumerian sorcerers who invented writing, we have the possibility
of understanding something very powerful about the vanishing
point. It's not necessarily the end. We can conceive of it
as the beginning.
Death
emanates our lives. The vanishing point becomes the point
of origin, where we appear in the void as the sum of our lives.
Everything we are is there - where we begin!
The
illusion - as convincing as the sun rising or stars wheeling
- is that we are falling toward our last moment. No. We are
ascending out of it.
The
poetic conclusion to the truth of contemporary physics is
this: we are the abyss. Forget your anthropocentrism. Our
brains evolved to serve our gonads and ovaries, not reality.
Our genitals, powered by Darwinian forces, inveigh against
the extravagant truth that we are evoked out of nothing, out
of an astonishing strangeness we call reality but may just
as well and more accurately name for what it really is: unknowable
mystery.
Dazzling,
light-filled emanation of death, you are the sublime agonist.
Reason struggles against you. But your significance surpasses
all understanding, all concepts. You survived the downfall
of heaven. Existence for you is but a dream. Erotic, prophetic,
ephemeral, your appearance is an incomprehensible apparition
in the void. In a flash of fright and lust, those who came
before you are gone.
Before
you also disappear, you have recourse to a fierce power rare
among our kind and more transmogrifying than music. You can
write. The anthropocentric fanatics among us will try to use
that power against you. Contracts, tax forms, levies, rules,
regulations, laws, manuals, bills, theses, pamphlets, fact
sheets, histories, authorizations, wills, edicts, reports,
critiques, reviews, catalogues, monographs, policies, assessments,
subpoenas, letters testamentary, missives, licenses, tracts,
position papers, notices, amendments, résumés,
essays, transcripts, brochures, memos, articles, epistles,
billboards, permits, disquisitions, newsletters, memoirs,
lists, ordinances, interviews, encyclicals, announcements,
notes, invoices, ad campaigns, rosters, dissertations, charters,
hagiologies, writs, registrations, dossiers, e-mails, compositions,
treatises, mission statements, analyses, proclamations, records,
weblogs and, of course, memoranda - anything the modern mind
can spell out to spellbind you, the glandular zealots will
exploit to keep you normative, anything to exorcise your irrational
splendor.
Fight
back. Write a poem. Not any poem. Not doggerel. Write a folkloric
poem about your uncanny spirit rising out of the abyss, emanating
from death, raying backward through the delusion of time from
the appearance point. Make it something deeper than logic
or will, something mystically shaped by our grander unity.
If modern physics is right, this poem will not only change
you - it will change the world. You will find yourself living
in a different universe. And the more intimately you touch
the secret state of your imaginative nature, the more profoundly
and irresistibly will you transfigure our unparalleled universe.
Unleash
your strange power and write a story. Resist the numbing toxin
of spider-minded writing instructors who urge you to write
about what you know. They want to tangle you up in their webs
of reason spun from the swollen glands of our terrible, desolate
evolutionary survival. But you already know we don't survive.
You are an emanation of death. You have leaped directly out
of the pit.
So,
write flamboyantly about all that is unknown and unknowable.
Write at the limits of sight and light, in the tenebrous ranges
that curve into the abyss. Don't try to make it good. Make
it bad, shocking and exultant, a mesmeric mix of transcendent
and infernal. Admire what's bad in your writing and redefine
it deeper to holy. Bloody the tight-lipped mouth of God and
press yourself passionately against the heart of infinity.
Don't
let anybody fool you again. You are the mysterious, majestic
spirit of the incomprehensible.
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