Dreadful Joy:
memoranda for the yinsane
#7
Writer's Block
Full
of nothing, writer's block is a sacred state. Only the most
skillful yogis and advanced Zen adepts can pull it off for
very long. Perhaps in part because writing is so new to our
neurology, this peculiar art miraculously provides ready access
to a special awareness brimful of emptiness - a hallowed psychic
state much revered by mystics.
We
took a short tour of those holy grounds in the previous memorandum,
“The Blank Page.” From that perspective, writer's
block is a confrontation with Infinity. It's the writer's
mind mushed up against the boundary between our 3-dimensional
world and whatever is unraveling pi.
For
the writer, this divine rapport generally feels miserable.
Divinity serves gods, not scribblers, after all. What's required
is a shift of perspective, pivoting on a word that can roll
over this ponderous incapacity to write and empower new creative
momentum.
Let's
go for a word from one of the oldest spells, from a time when
spells were brand new and full of supernatural brio. Sin-liqe-unninni,
this author's favorite Mesopotamian exorcist (and the world's
first known author), opens his metaphysical adventure, The
Epic of Gilgamesh, with the abyss.
The
empty page is a modern emblem of the abyss - a manufactured
void, literary cousin of the vacuum tube. Deep in the dark
of the verbal unconscious, well out of sight of prying eyes,
abyss copulates phonetically with the Sanskrit word abhyas,
which means spiritual devotion.
"He
who stared into the abyss" begins Gilgamesh and initiates
5,000 years of people doing likewise, 50 centuries of Dredful
Joye - a Way of mind, a noetic yoga, where spirit equals the
Latin spiritus, breath. Breath in the abyss of non-being,
on the blank page, opens to the devotion of creative writing.
Seen
this way, writer's block is breathless suspension in the void.
Its silence measures the tensile strength of yinsanity. How
much nothing can a writer take before giving up something?
The
Norse shaman god, Odin, suspended himself in the Abyss by
dangling from the World Tree. He did this in order to attain
knowledge for the benefit of humanity. After nine days, his
misery trance opened to revelation, and he envisioned runes
and how to write.
Thanks,
Odin! Now, we mortals each have a small piece of the World
Tree, the empty page (usually manufactured in our citied world
by felling trees) from which we too can suspend ourselves
in the Abyss, the abhyas, spiritual devotion of nothing.
And
what do we receive for our devotion, for enduring the empty
page? We're not gods like Odin. We mortal wayfarers create
from our humanity - and so, whatever we attempt is imperfect.
All
art is inadequate genius. That's why it's art. Its inadequacy,
its deviance from truth, is its beauty.
Take,
for example, the 18th century literary prodigy John Keats,
who concludes his poem "Ode on a Grecian Urn" with
the Romantic anthem (spoken by the eponymic Urn itself - the
voice of art carrying across the generations): "Beauty
is truth, truth beauty, -- that is all/Ye know on earth, and
all ye need to know."
The
force of those lines echoes weirdly down the blood-smeared
corridors of the Industrial Age. Like a bent blues note, the
power of that mellifluous spell is its distortion in a world
of death camps and famine, machete massacres and tsunami annihilation.
Can
words mean anything? Of course. Anything at all, every kind
of nonsense, all the way down to phonemic glyphs and text
fragments as verbal twitches in the long page's blank face.
Incoherent demon voices. Sin-liqe-unninni knew how to handle
them, and he receives us into his magic every time we read
with the expectation of understanding. That is a magical act.
Therefore, it's dangerous. Text, by definition, is the power
to spell. We must be exorcists not to get possessed and bedeviled
by text and its illusions. The important lesson here: Words
mean something, even when they don't.
And
if we write creatively, the exorcist with a face weathered
as earth is our coeval, jumping with us into the abyss, encouraging
our hang time, our breathless devotion to the Unspeakable.
Too briefly we drift full of mighty nothing, an awe and silence
shared by all creative writers - until the urgency to write
claims us, and we fall back into uniqueness.
Then,
it goes down as it always has - linguistic flow leads to narrative
vision - just as Odin describes in verse 141 of the Icelandic
saga Havamal. There, the wizard god acknowledges what happened
with him after he received the runes and the art of writing:
"Then
began I to grow and gain in insight,
to wax eke in wisdom:
one verse led on to another verse
one poem led on to another poem."
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